xHalfaLife101x on DeviantArthttps://www.deviantart.com/xhalfalife101x/art/Forgive-us-Mother-214967039xHalfaLife101x

Deviation Actions

xHalfaLife101x's avatar

Forgive us Mother...

Published:
625 Views

Description

-We can not, not anymore.


Anyway I don't really know what I can say to this peice exept for how this is very close to my heart. This is been really hard for me, so finally I got the courage to post a picture of it online.

EDIT:// Oh if you want to know about teh size difference my sister before this started was smaller (she's two years younger) by now she's shot up so tall she's taller then me. Thats why in teh first couple annels she is larger (the white shecat with patches of brown tabby and grey) and then she's smaller in the flash back.

***Also the last pannel of just their feet is my attempt at them standing away from their mother, and walking away

START RANT/ {Do not read if you don't want xD}


My mom had this boyfriend. for 12 years. He showed up every other day and spent the night. He never made an attempt to be anything more and even as kids my siblings (older brother and younger sister) knew that he had no intent to be our dad so we never tried to haev him be that person.

We knew he was there for mom, so we just went on with our lives.

Now... They started fighting. No, they had always been fighting. They had always butt heads about everything. My sister and I never liked him. Ever. We put up wiht him though because he never attempted to enter our life so we just pretended he didn't exist in a way.

Anyway the fighting became more intense... The shouts became louder and death threats... They where broken up for a while, but he'd still call... One day I even got a call from school, in teh middle of class they had pulled me in to the principals office. It wa smy mom. "Honey!" She cried. "You have to come home now and help me. It's Ruth, he just shot himself!"

He was fine.

He had called her and said "this is what you do to me" and fired a gunshot, then dropped the phone to the floor and left my mom on the other end not knowing what had happened.

Anyway, after tehy broke up mom promised us kids one thing. My sister was outraged and I was torn apart by the stress by holding the family up (making dinners, cheering everyone up ect.) and I was totally emotionally torn up as well.

So they slowly started getting back together. My sister and I told ehr not to. She always said "where over where just helping each other heal and get over it."

I'm 17. Sooner or later she should have realised that I knew that going to a hotel was not in any way helping the two of them 'brake up.'

Still, we had a promise. We where safe from this at home.

We couldn't stop it. We watched my mom draw line after line. 'we'll just watch each others facebook posts nothing more' 'we'll just call eachother once a day'

Line after line he crossed it, and in teh end she realised that he wanted something form ehr every time he 'loved her'

This weekend she met him, and my sister and I got a call. It was my mother.

"get your sister. Lock the doors and windows he's coming to the house and he's really pissed."

Way to scare your children. We obliged, crying and seething with anger we did as we where told, locking teh doors and windows, grabbing out dog, and leaving.

He called us from our house (on my moms cell- we had met up with her) later but by then we where with our mom.

ALL THIS happens and she agree's to speak to him again that day.

If that wasn't hard enough for us, to watch our mom go talk to him when where peading to her not to, she drops a bomb. It's afew hours later when she comes in adn we where starting to fear something had happened.

"hey! I'm just getting a toothbrush and toothpaste then I'll be spending the night at the motel with him."

We where left alone. She didn't even make dinner. (it's trivial but when you never see your mom its the only time we all sat down together calmly.)

She said she'd be home early.

Then she called and said 11:30

Noon rolled by and my sister and I heated up left overs for lunch, adn went upstaires.

Later, (I think two or three hours) she comes up to my room and my sister and I jump up to meet ehr, hugging ehr and saying we misse dher.

She says "Oh I'v been here for an hour at least I was just being really quiet because I was here lending Ruth a cooler of ours and I didn't think you'd want to know he was in the house."

Our one safe place. The ONE thing she had promised us.

She got upset and said "Well at least I told you. When are you guys ging to give him a chance to show hes trustworthy now? Or trust that I'm over him?"

Like we where angry about that.

Her and I walked out without a word.

This is our home.

Our safe place....

And she's letting the one man I hate walk around.
Image size
1600x984px 1.21 MB
© 2011 - 2024 xHalfaLife101x
Comments21
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
CourtneyTDI's avatar
Oh my God, My setting is almost the same. My mom has a boyfriend, and they fight all the time. My brother and I are tired of all the lies she tells us. She has no right to move us from house to house just to keep her relationship with him alive. We are not ragdolls, and she needs to recognize that. My mom ignores us, never answers us, unless it has something to do with school. We live with her boyfriend now, and everyday I wish i can live with my dad, but he travels too much. I fear i might die in the middle of the night, because the fights are so brutal, we almost crashed into our garage in a fight, and I sat on the corner of my driveway, crying over the phone while telling my dad to pick me up. My brother and I are young, and have no idea how to deal with a situation like this. Why can't he just go away and leave us alone? He's making my life confusing and filled with lies. :/